killer school

did you know that college sucks?
weellll
it most certainly does!
I have no life anymore
it's all coming to a close
and
assignments are piled
in a sweet little, oversized pile
waiting to be sketched, painted, written, presented

seriously!
I can't wait for May first
MayDay = Freedom for a few months
before it starts all over again
...
joy

Hi Hans!!

yay for oil paint!
well not really I'm more of an acrylic person,
oil smells
takes to long to dry
BUT
you can get some pretty kick ass blending with it.

Bye Frans!!

tonight's another night

don't think just do
thats my mantra for life drawing class
don't think about the old wrinkly balls
just draw them
...
when you don't think about what you're drawing
I find that you draw better
draw what you see not what you know
when you don't think you force yourself to look
...
no thinking
no thinking
no thinking
damn
i can't shut my brain off now
im thinking
still thinking
still thinking
fucking coffee
...
don't think just do
it really works
promise

Aloha

Alright, so I know it's been a while but what can you do?
clearly i'm uber unreliable.
I should be studying the works of;
Hobbes, Locke and Marx
but, well I just don't feel like it!.
I don't especially care for any of them.
In truth I find them all brilliant in their own way since they're all so different,but i've never really cared much for politics.
sue me

rescue me with your smile

LOVE
noun, verb, loved, lov⋅ing.
–noun
1. a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.
2. a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection
3. sexual passion or desire.

How is it that the definition of the very thing that defines most people is so simple?
yet the real thing is so very complex
and sometimes seemingly intangible?
all you need is love
never forget that
even though it will make or break you

I crave a love so deep its like the kiss of a razor blade

sensual creatures we are
craving love
and overcome by desire

...

it's as if i'm dreaming most of the time
I wish I lived in a fairy tale
where there is always a happy ending
will I ever get my happily ever after?
i wonder,
i wish,
is it silly to dream so big?
to want love
to crave love
but to never have been in love?
love.
what is the point of love
it's something many people want but are afraid to open their hearts to
something some people have but throw it away for nothing
its sacred
its overrated
it, like this post is completely contradictory

my mind is all jumbled
its probably best if i stop rambling at the moment